I am a very optimistic person. I have been told time and time again that I always seem to be bright and chipper and good to be around.
This makes me happy – I feel (somewhere deep down) that I am supposed to be a person who brings the upside to conversations, to situations, to the lives that surround me.
That being said, it isn’t always easy.
- It isn’t easy to always do what we want.
- It isn’t easy to always do what we should.
- It isn’t easy to always find the good.
- It isn’t easy to be who you want to be all the time.
I want to provide my family with good, real, nourishing food
100% at least 80% of the time. I want to share with my friends, acquaintances and even strangers what a difference real food can make in your life. It will improve your health, improve your mood, create a more sustainable world where real food is grown with healthy soils and organisms.
As easy as I may make it sound on some of my posts and in general, it is not the “easiest” way to live when you are still adjusting to it. It takes time and money to buy good foods and prepare them correctly. You can get great deals, but again it takes time and diligence to find them. There are nights I want to go to the supermarket and buy a frozen pizza and breadsticks and eat it with ice cream sodas. But I don’t – instead I make a homemade pizza with the kids help and use sprouted pizza crust, homemade pizza sauce and organic whole milk cheese – and we have it with kombucha! And in the end – the 2nd way was a lot more fun, a lot better, and there was no guilt and yucky stomachs or sugar highs afterwards!
I love to share the information I have learned and am still learning with others who can benefit. But I have learned that they have to *want* to learn it also, it cannot be forced and everyone will not welcome it with open arms. It can be hard to understand why someone is unwilling to want to hear what could help them – but I know I have been unwilling to hear things from others before…
I choose to take the route that may be less traveled. I choose this because it is important to me, and because I KNOW it is making a difference. This is what keeps me going and keeps me happy!
I want to be a parent who is attentive to my children, fun to be around and who enriches their daily lives with knowledge and life experiences. I want to kiss their boo-boo’s each time they fall, I want to read them stories all day, I want to run through the sprinklers and roll through the dirt with them and not care.
But many times I don’t…
There are the times I didn’t sleep well so I don’t want to go play outside first thing in the morning and I put Bizz in the living room with a movie on and give BooBoo some colored pencils and paper and I spend time on facebook instead of with them.
There are times I get so frustrated that I have to repeat the same question or word over and over again to get the result that I want that I raise my voice or speak angrily.
There are times I get so overwhelmed when BooBoo wants to be held constantly that I just put her down and let her cry.
I just hope that I can continue to learn everyday how to be a better me and how to grow my patience, my love and my caring for my beautiful children.
What is the point of this post?
To understand, to grow, to share experiences with others.
It is hard to share the not-so-pretty sides of parenting, and eating real food and living in this crazy busy world. But when I feel detached from that person that I long to be, I try to remind myself that I am not alone. That to be perfect is not to be perfect. But to try – to care – and to be present.
In that I will continue to struggle…. and to find my way.
And I will continue to have my happy, optimistic outlook on life (with a few “I’m going to go crazy” moments intermingled)!